Observations 2.8 – Decisions

A tremendous number of decisions are made and executed by us every day.  Regardless of the level of consciousness associated with said decisions, we none the less own those decisions and their outcomes.  Doing what is easy or what may be our habit does not absolve ownership.  Choosing not to do something is an also decision and we own the outcomes of that inaction as well.

The outcome of any decision has some caliber of cost; a price.  Deciding to stick your hand in a flame has the immediate price of pain and a lesson that is quite apparent; given another opportunity we would most likely decide not to put our hand or any other body part in or near any flame.  The cost of other decisions we make day in and day out are not as immediate or apparent.  These incremental costs, day in and day out, impact the quality of our lives.

I really had to sit and think to realize exactly how many decisions I make in a day.  The purpose of my examination was to generate awareness so I can work on breaking the default mode of thoughtlessness, meaning literally not to have given conscious thought.  Formerly, I was convinced that in some cases my mind was “taking over” and there was no decision being made which meant my actions were automatic. Filing decisions under the heading of automatic was allowing me to subconsciously absolve myself of ownership. The thing is, I still OWNED the outcome.

I learned that there is a moment between the decision and my actions and habits. That space between a decision and taking action often feels like a nanosecond however it does exist.  I practice lengthening that space and creating a conscious pause.  I practice becoming more aware.  I practice being less reactive.  Even recognizing that I have been reactive rather than responsive is progress.

On this journey my decision focus began with food choices and has expanded to other aspects of my life than I wanted to change. We CAN make change in our lives.  We have to decide to do it.  These words are easier to write than to execute but SO WHAT?  If we only did what was easy how much progress would we make?  Small changes, big results.  Practice creates progress.

More to come…..